Author's Note: Today I opened up my old writing notebooks looking for inspiration. Out of my 11 books, I found something that hit me hard in book #1. It gave me a glimpse into my 12-13-year-old self and how I used to cope with life. I essentially lived in my head. I decided to rewrite the piece from the view of my 20-year-old self. I'll show you the original and the one I wrote today.
12-13-year-old self:
"I feel so happy in my mind,
And I can't understand why.
I am so excited in every way
To be free and happy.
The days are bright and I am light
And glad to be a part of them.
But when I'm sad I feel so bad
The days just drag me down.
The days are gloomy to see me now
That I am now downhearted."
20-year-old self:
I feel so happy in my mind,
Hiding from my daily life.
It seems so freeing at the present,
Then later sad and unrealistic.
Days in my mind seem bright and light
Until reality sets in.
I felt so happy in my mind
Until I realized that living there
Is a sad desolate place,
Where I create fake realities
To pass time in my real life.
How sad it is to think
That we hate our lives so much
We create fake ones,
That we can never live up to.
Instead of being present in each moment,
And looking at the joys
In our precious lives.
How can we be free and happy
If we are creating a fake reality
That we never will be able to achieve?
There is so much joy or peace
In living in the mind
Only depression and disillusion.
written by Evelyn Creon
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